Journal 8 - Back on Track

After a quiet weekend at home with Ace and Jonathan, I'm back on the baby bandwagon. I know it's going to be tough to have a second and that's why I'm so back and forth. Before having Ace, my view of having a baby was through pink colored glasses. I hadn't experienced the nights without sleep, constant nursing, nose aspiration and clogged milk duct. Don't misunderstand me and think that I don't love being Ace's mom. Some parts are just more enjoyable than others and they outweigh the hard parts. I just know now that it is REALLY hard work. It's also selfless. I love a warm bath, a solitary shower, an afternoon nap, an entire meal all my own, uninterrupted sleep and watching adult television...but I love Ace much, much more. So I'll be ovulating at the end of next week and we'll see what happens.