Journal 24 - On the 24th!

Today's my normal start day. In spite of myself, I'm hoping that I'm pregnant. In the middle of stress, work and spiritual battles, I'm hoping for the blessing of a child. If I'm not, I imagine that there is still struggling to do. I guess I'm wishing for a piece of hope in this tough time. Ace is such a bringer of joy - that's the best way to describe him. He does it wherever he goes. I want more of that. I want another little bundle of smiles, laughs and innocence. I can imagine that the kingdom of Heaven is full of these souls and it's what I'll be like there. My soul is already there each time I see Ace and think of a new baby.