I'm hoping confession (even just to my computer and the few readers that know about this blog) will get rid of these thoughts that are just beating me up lately. You know how Paul lamented that he did things he didn't want to do. That's me and my thought life. First it was the loving love (previous post). Now it's the crazy longing for high school...I know, I've LOST my mind. Maybe it's just because my ten year reunion was in October. One of the reasons I didn't go was because I have been having these absurd feelings like I wish I was back in high school and I didn't want to feed them. I feel so silly even talking about it but one thing I've learned this year (thank you Brittany and Kate for teaching me) is that talking about silly things that you fear takes the power away from them. I fear most that this is such a sign of immaturity in me. I fear it's a foothold for Satan. I wish I could squeeze these feelings out and put them down my kitchen disposal and grind them up. They are FOOLISH and I fear that makes me a fool. Does my hatred of these thoughts count for anything?
Lord, please take each thought captive. Let this confession loose their hold on me. I want contentment in my present circumstances more than anything.
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